Well, here we go again. It seems like every voluntary life change comes with me starting a blog. I mean, are blogs even relevant anymore? I recall starting one on my myspace account in High School, writing a blog as I started attending Arizona State University, attempting an engagement blog to update family. And each of them go about the same. I'll add one or two posts and then life will set in. Well, I am hoping this time is a little different. I am giving myself time to write.
Today is the first day of classes for my MFA in Lighting Design. So naturally the schedule has to be filled to make for a fun first day. Coincidentally, it was also my first day with a new therapist, and while the session was just filled with intake questions, it was hard to recount all the same information I feel I have recounted many times before. But I think its a good reminder before classes start that things that are good for you typically aren't easy.
I am definitely feel the imposter syndrome today / yesterday. Could not sleep a wink. I laid down at 10pm and was still laying there at 2am. Its hilarious to me that after 13 years of being an arts-based educator, I am second guessing my ability to be an arts-based educator. I have the skills, I have the knowledge and I have the work ethic, so what's the deal brain?
However, after last week's orientation and trauma-bonding with my fellow first years, I think I am solidified in one truth. I chose the right place to be. It will be hard, I will likely want to cry/stress/give-up, but if ever a place to do so, it is surrounded by the people I am currently with. The second and third years in the program are super supportive and my first year team are just a wide-variety of talented individuals. And I actually feel like all the professors here want to see you succeed, which wasn't always the case in the past, or maybe it was just because I was online with my last degree.
Anyway, here is to the next 3 years. Here is to achieving lifelong dreams. Here is to giving it my all.
I am definitely feel the imposter syndrome today / yesterday. Could not sleep a wink. I laid down at 10pm and was still laying there at 2am. Its hilarious to me that after 13 years of being an arts-based educator, I am second guessing my ability to be an arts-based educator. I have the skills, I have the knowledge and I have the work ethic, so what's the deal brain?
However, after last week's orientation and trauma-bonding with my fellow first years, I think I am solidified in one truth. I chose the right place to be. It will be hard, I will likely want to cry/stress/give-up, but if ever a place to do so, it is surrounded by the people I am currently with. The second and third years in the program are super supportive and my first year team are just a wide-variety of talented individuals. And I actually feel like all the professors here want to see you succeed, which wasn't always the case in the past, or maybe it was just because I was online with my last degree.
Anyway, here is to the next 3 years. Here is to achieving lifelong dreams. Here is to giving it my all.
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